Gut Feelings....

And so the story continues with "BC". Last night was the first night I've gotten to see him in over a week. Because of our opposite schedules and he went out of town for a few days. So I was really excited to see him even though we got hit by a tornado and there was a lot of trees down by my house and more storms to come I still went over by him. One reason is because I hardly get to see him and I was really missing him. But here's the thing him and his roommate drove back together and it was supposed to be a 6 hour trip. We had been texting the whole time pretty much except when I took a nap. Then I was woken up by the tornado and freaked out. He was still driving so I was a little worried he'd get hit by a storm but he said it wasn't bad. Which I was happy to hear. Anyways after the storm and our power was out I didn't have much power left on my cell phone so my mom and I went to sit in my car and listen to the radio and charge our phones. When things seemed a bit quiet we decided to go for a ride and maybe see if any stores where open. Luckily Jewel was and we were able to go there. All during this time I was texting BC too. I told him when he got home to let me know if he had electricity so I could charge my phone and camera. Then I send him another message saying I was going to see if I could even get through on the road I take to his house. Well after I sent that message he told me he had just got home. But I wasn't planning on going there right then just wanted to see if the main road would even let me get by. It did. So I sent him a text telling him I wouldn't be there for at least another hour. Which was fine by him. When I got there I was so excited to see him and vice versa. So when we were in his house I asked if his roommate was already asleep and then he tells me he has been asleep since 10pm. Which was kinda weird considering they got home at 11:30pm. So why lie? I know its not a huge lie or something but still. We're not dating or in a relationship right now. It has me really confused almost as though he's hiding something. I mean if he had gotten home at 10 that would've been fine I didn't plan on seeing him as soon as he got home because I knew he was gone for 4 days and probably wanted to do some things. Its just kinda weird and has me really thinking about things now. I just think I'm going to back off and stick with my gut feeling. I mean it really sucks because I really am seeming to like him a lot. But if its going to protect me from heartbreak later on I'm better off just stopping while I'm ahead. I didn't say anything to him. I know since he didn't have power he couldn't charge his phone either and not sure if he'd be able to at work. But I didn't even attempt to send him any messages. I'll just wait and if he sends me one then I'll respond with caution. Maybe its just me over thinking things too but when I told my friend about it she was shocked. Sucks. Beginning to wonder if there is a such thing as happiness. Finding a guy who doesn't play games or someone who is just up front. Because thats how I am.

And normally I'm dead on with my gut feelings.