I need peace and understanding...

Over all I think I have a good handle on things in my life. The things I can control that is. As for the things I can't, well I just need to accept them as they are and hope for the best.

Tonight I find myself upset with my mother. For a few reasons. One I find myself upset with her because of her health. Ever since her stroke a couple months ago she has me always worrying about her. Especially since her diabetes have been out of control. And saying that its out of control is a complete understatement. She's still young and I don't want to lose her anytime soon. So I hope things start getting better sooner than later. Second reason I'm upset with her, because well she can be just blame stupid when it comes to men. (A reason why I believe I'm so damn guarded) There's this guy she was dating for a while. I can't even begin to tell you what kinda guy he his. If you met him you would think to yourself, why in the word is this lady with him. She sells herself short when it comes to men. But its not even that I just think she needs to concentrate on her health right now and getting better than some asshole. Who will just end up causing more stress in her life. But I'm only the daughter. I have no say. I think there was a third reason somewhere too but the second one clogs up my mind too much.